It's A Girl

Oh my gosh. I could not believe it when the tech said it was a girl. I had decided in the waiting room that I was going to be happy either way. It's not like I could change the result, right? I was so nervous going into the room, I just wanted to make sure all the parts were in the right place and everything was normal. Of course, everything was fine and then she asked if we wanted to know the sex. I said yes and then you know the rest. I cried a bit of happy tears and Jeremy was so excited. He said that he knew it was a girl but he didn't want to get my hopes up. The tech said the baby weighs eleven ounces-in the 97th percentile. So we see that my lack of weight gain is not an issue because she is getting everything she needs. We decided to name her Shelby Elizabeth, that being my middle name as well. Jeremy and I both love Shelby and it sounds so southern, so girly. Anyways, my appointment went well and I will go back in four weeks. I cannot wait to start shopping for all the adorable clothes that come along with having a girl. I told Gabe he was going to have a baby sister and he just looked at me. I guess he won't really understand until she gets here. Now we will have one of each and I think that will be it for us. Jeremy used to want five until he realized how much kids actually cost. We have 22 weeks left to prepare and to be honest, I hope the time does not go by too quickly. This pregnancy is much more enjoyable than the first and we want to get all the time in with Gabe that we can because once Shelby gets here, everything will change again.

Spending Time With The Grandparents

Gabe and I went to see my parents last week. Jeremy has been working so much and I really wanted to go home for a bit. So the first adventure was driving during the day. I had not done this with since we lived in East Tennessee and I was worried about what he would do. Most of the way there he behaved quite well. Then once we got about 2 hours away, he wanted out of the car right away I found myself singing the silliest songs and pointing out things on the road that I never would have looked at before. It's amazing what you will do to keep a child quiet. We finally arrived at the house and Gabe was so excited. Thankfully, he decided to behave once w got there and went bonkers over all the Shrek stuff my Mom had gotten him (yes, Shrek and dinosaurs are competing for first place in my child's heart). Dad got to teach Gabe some of the basics of golf, which was fun to observe. Gabe just wants to hit everything while Dad is trying to teach him the correct form. It was so interesting to watch Gabe because he really tried to get my parents to save him whenever I tried to discipline him. One day I thought my Mom and I were both going to pull our hair out because he kept going back and forth between us trying to get us to give him what the other wouldn't. But other than the occasional two-year-old tantrum we really enjoyed our visit. We got to visit with some of my friends and that is always a nice treat for me. Gabe has been fascinated with lawn mowers for a while now and a neighbor was having his lawn cut one afternoon. Mom and Gabe watched carefully as the two guys did their job and Gabriel could not get enough of it. They had to walk around the house and get just close enough to observe, but not get too scared. It is so much fun to watch Gabe with his grandparents. We will be going back in a week and they will be keeping Gabe so I cannot wait to hear his version of what they do.

Being Pregnant..

I am four months along now and this pregnancy is so different from the first. Thankfully there aren't nearly as many visits to the bathroom and I am able to eat. Although, I am not eating much and my doctor is constantly on me for not gaining weight. I am more tired for very obvious reasons and that little red head does not give an inch :) My mind seems to be playing tricks on me and I have come to the conclusion that pregnancy makes my hormones go nuts and I go a bit crazy. The depression is more noticable with this one, but I can recognize it and know that it's not me it's just what my body does. Hopefully when I see my doctor this week she can give me some advice on what to do. Of course there are some very exciting moments. I am already feeling the baby move and am also showing more and more everyday. When I see newborn outfits I get all excited think about those first few months when all babies want to do is cuddle. I still have a while to go and cannot wait to find out the sex in just 2 weeks.

Life is Tough

When you are little and you want to grow up all you think about is getting to drive, staying up all night and never having anyone ever telling you what to do. But the reality is that it's a pain to have to drive yourself everywhere, staying up all night is overrated and you will always have someone telling you what to do. I look at Gabe and wonder when he will start to wish he was out of the house or when the first time will be when he tells me he doesn't like me. I do not dwell on these things, but they are there. Today we went to the beach and I had a great time just watching him play in the water and run after the birds. He was so amazed by the waves and the sand. Was I ever that way? I am sure I was at one time or another. How do we lose that amazement with the world? How do you explain to your child about death and sickness and hurt that happens all the time? What do I say the first time he comes to me with a problem? I want to tell him to stand up for himself and to not let others push him around, but to be gentle and considerate. And how in the world do I teach a boy that? That it is OKAY to cry and you cannot always be tough. That talking to someone about your troubles is sometimes the best way to solve them. I guess when the time comes I will know what to say but it scares the stuffing out of me to think of it.